Pathetic

July 15, 2009

[Written - July 14, 2009 22:15] 

Here I go again, being hopelessly pathetic. This comes and goes occasionally if I failed to guard my emotions and reactions on things around me. I’m being brutally careless on myself, taking things for granted and letting opportunities pass by. What all these led me into, nothing but frustrations and tons of “what ifs” to ask. I never had the confidence to be on top, to be the only best among the crowd, and never been in the lime light of fame. I was always the commoner who just by luck been crowded with starry people. I’m always just a supporter and never been the lead, the second best but not the best of the best, and always the second choice.

Can the world flip for a second? And let me be the most important person that all they need to know. I’ve been searching for my strengths and weaknesses to accentuate the good and diminish the bad. I want everybody to see my worth, to see who am I what I am capable of, and how important I am in their existence. I’ve strived hard and even striving harder, but it’s not enough.

I always fail, doomed in this omen forever.