For my friend

For my friend who had been with me for almost 9 years, I pray for you to be strong. Amidst this season of joy, you have lost your most beloved father. I know it’s hard to accept his lost especially when you must be merry. Yet, let go of the anger and grief, your father is peacefully resting now with the one he loves, your mother. His sufferings had ended and God gave him the gift to be with Him.

Leaving without them is hard, but you must go on … he did not left you without confidence that you can make it without them, though for sure he’ll be with you all throughout in spirit.

I love you my friend and I miss you …. until then.

Pathetic

[Written - July 14, 2009 22:15] 

Here I go again, being hopelessly pathetic. This comes and goes occasionally if I failed to guard my emotions and reactions on things around me. I’m being brutally careless on myself, taking things for granted and letting opportunities pass by. What all these led me into, nothing but frustrations and tons of “what ifs” to ask. I never had the confidence to be on top, to be the only best among the crowd, and never been in the lime light of fame. I was always the commoner who just by luck been crowded with starry people. I’m always just a supporter and never been the lead, the second best but not the best of the best, and always the second choice.

Can the world flip for a second? And let me be the most important person that all they need to know. I’ve been searching for my strengths and weaknesses to accentuate the good and diminish the bad. I want everybody to see my worth, to see who am I what I am capable of, and how important I am in their existence. I’ve strived hard and even striving harder, but it’s not enough.

I always fail, doomed in this omen forever.

Farewell Mr. M

(Another late post)

March 9, 2009

Goodbye Mr. M

               It is a lost to the music industry - the death of one great artist, Francis Magalona. The great rapper of the 90’s and still a great musician to his last stay. Everyone grieved of his lost, everyone felt his worth, his contributions, and the difference he made in the music world. All who loved him and admired him now bear in their hearts the music he created, hoping this to linger throughout one’s existence. I am one of those many who were confounded of his death, I didn’t had the control to held back my tears, for he was such a great talent yet died so young. I am one of those admirers of his music, though I am not into “rap”, I do recognize the message of his songs and that what makes him outstanding. I don’t need to elaborate more his existence that changed multitude lives the response of the public alone can justify it all.

                To a great artist … so long! You’ll be remembered …

May God be with you.

Environmental Concern

(This post is way too late …i failed to update this blog for almost a year …now, i come to my senses and start posting again ) 

February 23, 2009

I was on my way home, a usual Monday afternoon after work, but this particular afternoon I was made to think of things that is happening around me. There have been multiple experiences that I had when riding a jeepney, yet I just surpassed these situations without totally submerging the lessons and warnings that it gave. This afternoon marks a difference.

                I was hurrying to get a seat on a jeepney (or else I’ll stay long waiting for my chance to have one), people are chasing jeepneys in areas that are not allowed to load passengers, obviously they want to get home early coz every single second counts. This is a typical scenario every afternoon. There I found a seat beside a woman drinking soda, maybe she’s so thirsty coz she sipped the soda in just one gulp. I paid less attention to this woman, for there are lot other personal things I need to think of, then I don’t know what exactly my reaction when I saw that woman threw her emptied plastic soda just right beside my shoulder to the open road. I stared at her, though maybe she didn’t notice it, I want to jerk at her and remind her that she is to spare the surroundings from dirt and not add on it. Make her realized that what she had done could create a big impact to the environment that we are trying so hard to save. I want to bring her wits to work, and start practicing to think of living someday on a green earth. Then I stop, why did I react that much? could I actually do that to her? to reprimand? could i? I was torn I didn’t know what to do, and I didn’t know what makes me think that way. Why I am being so concern this time? Why should I care to correct things that I know will not happened if they themselves will not do anything.  I guess the only thing that i can do and help is to constantly remind myself not to be like the woman that i happened to sit beside a jeepney.

Spending the Holy Week

03-22-08 0935H Black Saturday, from where i am i can see the streets busy once again, stores opened for business, and restless people trying to make a living. All things are back to normal again, and soon i’ll be back to my office working fervently. But, before the holy week ends, there’s a little thought inside my head that keeps on poping, and i wanted it to share. I wanted to ask people what does the holy week brings to them, does it merely give rest and a getaway from their busy everyday routine?  Or something else that is worth keeping and of value? I wanted to know their reflections, thoughts, and feelings. I wanted to know all these because i had evaluated myself with the same questions. Though i did not spent my holy week religiously as others may do,  i had my reflections and realizations too. Let me start relating all those from here.

19 hours have passed after Jesus died on the cross”, plus 18 hours of waiting before He’ll be risen again.  I’ve asked myself what i must do to prepare myself for this, but most importantly, what did i do for the past days  to prepare myself. Now im talking to my heart, asking how do i feel about the holy week, my beating is steady nothing extra- ordinary happened and so i tried deeper, asking my soul if the holy week nourished him with something worthy. There, i got my answer, somehow it did.
 

Before the long holy week begun, i already planned what to do for the long vacation out of office, and that is to continue working and try to  accomplish essentials for my project, how unusual isn’t?. But the Lord did not permit that to happened, i wasn’t able to work continuously as i planned. I guess He wanted me to take the holy week for me to reflect on my life and strengthen my faith in Him. He led me to view things in a brighter way, giving all reasons a reason. I’m thankful i let Him.

Jan. 01 2008

Happy New Year! Prospero Año Nuevo!

 may the Lord guide us all throughout the coming year c",). Have a blessed 2008 !

libro de mi vida

I opened once again the book of my life, read it from page to page.
To remind me of who i was, and find my true self now.
As i progress, i have seen the evidences that made me a different person.
The tears that i have shed to this book.

Every spotted ink to compose the writings showed emotions that made it alive.
I can not deny that i have also questioned why…
for all the pain that made my heart sometimes numb,
the burnt hope that used to flicker,
and the crumbled ideals that i used to have.

Suddenly, i asked myself, do i regret being the person i am now?
Shall i tore the pages that show misery and pain?
Or shall i keep them to remind me that life isn’t kisses and honeys at all.
And use these to be the best of myself.

I’ve realized, time flew so fast that i could not write it all down.

This book will continue to write…and no one knows when the story of my life will end.

Think about you and your partner

 – i got this from my mail, it has touched me that i want this posted.

B~log title

Whoa! my first post here, technically this is about my “blog title“. If you’ll look into it, it reads “o-seeve’nerak” the reverse of my full name. Though it is my name in reverse, it has its own meaning.Let’s split the word to give each its meaning.

Let’s disregard the first letter since it is seems to be just an expression.
seeve

     - It is a hidden and unknown file in the Windows folder. This listens for or sends data on open ports to LAN or internet. There are network and advertising companies who creates seeve application. If installed in your computer it will monitor your browsing habits and distributes the data back to the author’s servers for analysis. It also prompts annoying advertising popups.
     - In general, seeve is a ‘malware’ which resides in your registry and executes every time windows is started.

nerak

      - this word seems to be popular somewhere in UK , definite nationality? … i really dont know, hehehe. I googled this, and i got no definite definition, so i guess let’s settle for that (*wink).

That’s it! nothing follows c”,)